I have one hour.
No you are wrong. I gonna live more than that. I have one hour before my work.
what could i do in this one hour. Can i scribble on this white paper, can i write my dreams or can i see short film on UBU.com
how to maximise one's time? or should i go to bank and apply for credit card.. maximise my credit limit?
i think i should write down something.
over the years i became lazy lazier and more laziest..i wake up 11- 12 in the noon. whewre i am going? i don't try to work hard, take things as it is, don't try to push my limits. iCouldn't satisfy myself. I feel communiacation problem all along the world, whichever language or freinds or relatives?
all this lead to confidence loss and depression and many things.
I try to read things, people, stories but they don't create meaning , they don't translate ity in ideas .
i saw one old woman looking at me with curious eyes from the shop from opposite side.. what she might have thought about me? what story she has made up in her mind about this bearded man? ( Am i really man?)
how should i grow as a writer as film maker if i negate the experices? why my mind and body is becoming more andm ore stubborn?
i can write stories about the blind man who lost eyes in vietnam war, i make film on man who changed his sex, i can write screenplay on my own life. why not?